A while ago, my computer fan started making noises. I ignored it. It became louder. Every time I watched a YouTube video or Netflix movie, the fan made an even louder grinding noise, so I couldn't hear anything. It was annoying. It got to the point that I would rush to get my work done, and get off the computer as quickly as I could. I felt limited in what I could accomplish.
I finally asked my computer guy to take a look at it. I thought the fan would need to be replaced. It turns out the fan was fine. It just had so much dirt and dust around it, that there was no room for it to rotate properly. All it needed was a good cleaning, and removal of all the accumulated junk, so it had space to do its thing.
This got me thinking. Since there are no coincidences, I wondered what message the Universe was trying to send me. Then it hit me, the 'fan incident' was a metaphor for my life! God was the fan. The dust and dirt represented my false beliefs, holding onto the past, resentments, lack of self-love, unforgiveness for myself and others. My accumulated 'stuff' was blocking God's flow. God was working just fine on my behalf, answering my prayers, but I was preventing the good from reaching me. God was there, loving me unconditionally. I was not.
God kept getting louder and louder until I stopped and heard this message: “Release the pain from your past, Sherry, it no longer serves you. Everything you did, I asked of you. Everything others did to you, I asked them to do, for everyone’s growth and soul fulfillment. Forgive everyone, including yourself.” So I’ve been doing a lot of forgiveness and releasing lately. Doing this inner work was actually easier than living with the pain, and the resultant limitations. My heart feels lighter. I am amazed at how quiet and peaceful things are now (the computer and my life). Things are flowing beautifully.
There had been times when I thought God wasn’t hearing me. But it was actually the other way around. God never stopped trying to reach me. God is always rooting for me. God is my biggest fan…
